Our Fearless Little Girl

Well here lately our little girl has been a mess! She is just hilarious and makes us laugh so hard. She has been growing so fast lately and thinks she can do everything by herself. (Needless to say it takes a lot of praying and patience)! She is climbing on everything and scaring me to death. She loves to climb on our ottoman and jump up and down! Can we say "Terrified Mommy"? She climbed up on a dining room chair the other day and just looked at me and smiled. She is also getting smarter every day. She understands what we tell her to do more and more everyday. I will ask her to get things and she goes and gets what I say. The other day we were in the den and I asked her to go get me a diaper and she walked all the way in her room and got a diaper out of the diaper holder on her door and brought it back to me. I guess I didn't realize how smart a 15 1/2 month old could be. She amazes me everyday. The Lord has definitely blessed us with a beautiful, smart, hilarous little girl and I love being her Mom more and more every day!

God Definitely Gave Us Children Because He Knew they Could Always Make us Smile!

This week has not been easy because I have been trying to get over being sick, while working, and being super busy! Some days it is easy to get down and out. God definitely gave me Bella because he knew she would make me smile. Children are such an amazing blessing from God and they make you appreciate so much being a parent. Bella is growing so fast now. I know she is only 15 months but she is 15 months going on 5. She thinks she is a "big girl" now. She is doing so many things now that I can't even believe. First of all she is talking our ears off and I love it. Daniel and I just laugh at her because she is so funny. She is full of personality! The other day we were eating and Daniel started asking her to say certain words. She would say them right after him: Momma, Daddy, Nana, Papa, please, thank you, bye bye, Love you, ball, and many more. It is so hard to believe that she says so many words. Throughout the day it seems like she is constantly learning to say new things. I know there are more things she says, but can't remember them all. The thing that is amazing me the most right now is that she knows what we mean when we tell her to do things. For example, if Daniel is at work and I ask her if she wants to see her Daddy, she will walk to the front door and reach up and try to grab the door handle. She knows that is where Daniel comes in every day. Another example is that the other day I was giving her a snack in the den and I asked her if she wanted some cheese (Bella loves cheese!). She walked into the kitchen and reached up to the refrigerator handle to try to open it. She made me laugh so hard. Also today Daniel said he was going to take a bath and a few minutes later I walked into the bathroom and there was Bella standing at the bathtub trying to get in. She puts a smile on our faces! It's so hard to believe that a person that tiny can understand so many things. I sit and wonder sometimes if she is "on track" developmentally and if I am teaching her all the things I should ( I guess that's the teacher in me:) ) but I know that she is exactly where God wants her to be. I am so blessed to be a mom and I am so glad that the Lord gave Bella to Daniel and I especially on those days when we need some extra laughs!

My First Blog

I have been wanting to start a blog for a long time now, but sometimes life gets so busy and it goes way faster than you expect it to. I go back and forth wondering if I am a good mom because I haven't written (or typed) about everything that has happened since having our baby girl. I guess it is never too late to start getting better.
The last 15 months of my life have been so lifechanging to say the least. I have become a mom since then and it is the most rewarding, but not always easy, job in the world. I absolutely love being a mom. My baby girl, Bella, is a blessing from the Lord. She has definitely taught me so many things. She has taught me that I have to rely on the Lord for everything. That is not always an easy thing to do. I know that as a semi-OCD person, that I definitely love to take things into my own hands a lot of the time. Being a mom has shown me that I no longer have control [not like I had control before, but I thought I did:) ]! I have had to learn to just accept change and go day by day. Recently I was reading a devotional and it talked about a phrase, "Gracious Uncertainty". I had never heard of that before but this is the explanation it gave, "we are uncertain of the next step, but we are certain of God. We can be certain of God's grace while being graciously uncertain of the future details of our lives." I am learning daily that I have to live this way every day. I have to trust that God is in control even though I don't know what he has planned for me and my family in the future.
Another thing that Bella has taught me is that being a mom is very bittersweet. I love seeing her growing every day but at the same time it makes me so sad because she is growing so fast! Like this week for example, she started saying "I love you". Of course it sounds a little different but I can tell it's what she is saying. She is starting to say so many words now it amazes me. She says something new every day. Also, this afternoon me and her were in her room and I was putting her clothes up. She pulled all of her dirty clothes out of the hamper. Once I finished with putting her clean clothes up, I started to put the pile of books up that she had pulled out. I asked her to put her dirty clothes back in her hamper and she stood there and picked every single piece up and put it away like a "big girl". I almost cried! My baby girl is growing up! I was so proud and so sad at the same time. When they are small you want them to get bigger and then when they start getting bigger then you want them to slow down!
Well I made it through my first blog and have already shedded some tears. Since I have started now, I will try to be a better mom and keep it up! Just some thoughts from a mom who is blessed beyond measure!